As long as I can remember, I have always been self-conscious of my nose. Actually in my case, the lack of a bridge on my nose! I have a flat nose and I used to hate it so much. I remember as a teen, I would do all these crazy things I heard from other people that would miraculously make my nose more pointy and not as flat. For example, some adults told me that if I pull on the bridge of my nose every night, it would help. You know how when you have a headache, you pull on the bridgeof your nose to relieve the tension? Well, I was doing that hoping it would help. Obviously, it didn’t work because the only thing I got out of it was a red nose! That really made it noticeable! Okay, I have to admit, I was very stupid and naive as a teenage and yes desperate for my nose to grow.
Another crazy thing I did was try to put the close pen on my nose thinking that it would help. That hurt like hell so I quit that real fast! It felt like a crab grabbed a hold of my nose and refuse to let go! I’m sure by now you are probably thinking how stupid I was and I couldn’t agree with you more. The only defense I have is that I was desperate! I wanted a pointed nose like my American friends! Also, I got tired of some of them asking if I could breathe okay or smell this or that with my flat nose. My response was always the same, I would indignantly point at my nostrils and questioned , ” Don’t you see these two holes?” Of course, my friends was joking but it still made me feel self-conscious. It made me wonder, how do they see me? Do I look weird? Ugly? Do I look like a platypus to them? What would I look like if I had a higher bridge? Would it make me look better or worse?
On a serious note, I did consider rhinoplasty until I saw some Laotians who had it done. It changed the way they look so much that they no longer look ethnic. It was weird for me to see Laotians who went from having flat noses to pointed noses as I call it. Of course, it made them feel better about themselves so that is all that matters. However, for me, I am too scared that it would change my look so much that I will not look like a Laotian anymore. Also, how about if you end up hating it and got stuck with it unless you were willing to redo it again. That would cost more money, time and pain. For some people they are willing to go under the knife. As for me, the answer is no to rhinoplasty since I don’t like pain. Watching those nose surgery has totally freaked me out.
My nose is what identifies me as Asian.